friends to lover,

lovers to stranger.


went to school at like 11plus.
slept at 3plus ytd.
well, nth much.
gona chiong finish my hmwrk asap.
and thats it.
iam gg to enjoy my holidays with events nicely planned.
and ive gotten my med today.
thanks.

i just wnar rant abt some stufs.
just ignore the whole chunk below.
dont bother abt me.

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i dont see a need to go to the extent of
not being able to be friends anymore,
you feel down,
but everything uve done to me is more than a word down.
there are more truths i came to realise.
its just that i dont want to say it all out to you.
reason being, i still hope to keep that little space.
or rather, face. for us to be able to be friends nxt time.

but now, u dont even wna be friends w me ?
idk what ure thinking seriously.
i held my tears for you,
cus i promised myself too, the last time when i cried.
iam not gg to cry anymore.
dont cry because its over.
dont regret only when things turns ugly
the hurt is alrd there.
cus u never did learn to cherish those chances i gave u.
u never did. u took it for granted.
this time round,iam gg to be hard on myself.
chances i gave to you,
now to me.

iam alw bothered about this issue.
even aftr so long.
i rly hate feeling like this.
i hate it.
but i never did give up.
cus i alw believes that there will be a change.
but now, i doubt so.
all along, iam nothing.
and thats sad and heart-wrenching.
ur saddness or whatsover will only last for at the most 3 days.
i know.cus uve moved on,
very well,since the day we marked the end.
now,ure also attached.

but me? i thought iam moving on,
but iam still going nowhere.
i tried to keep it easy for us.
the mail i wrote,
trying to be "happy-go-lucky"
that it will be all fine for me.
but, u didnt want to keep it that way.
you ruined everything.
ive nothing to say.
i kno uve dlted me from msn,
maybe even my number.
but whats the purpose seriously.
all along iam repeating myself again and again.

now, thats it.
not sure how long it will take,
but il keep walking.
because life goes on.....

its alright, iam gg to be fine.
cause there is no turning back
as uve moved on , pretty well.
you will never, never change.
let go,even if it hurts.
these , i keep telling myself.

{ this sucks, to have a whole post of emo stufs }